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[Friday
February 25th, 2005
9:13pm] |
mark the x ... if its true
(x) snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city
( ) saw a shooting star
(x) been to any other countries besides yours
(x) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
( ) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
( ) done drugs ( ppl think im on them lol )
( ) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
( ) made out in an elevator (i wanttt toooo)
(x) swore at your parents
(x) kicked a guy where it hurts.
( ) been in love
( ) been close to love
(x) been to a casino
( )been skydiving
( ) broken a bone
(x) been high ( onnn sharrpiieblunttts lol trina )
( ) skinny-dipped ( deff should )
(x) skipped school
( ) flashed someone
(x) saw a therapist
( ) done the splits
(x) played spin the bottle (haha, good times )
( ) gotten stitches
( ) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
(x) bitten someone
( ) been to Niagara Falls
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the same sex (mom/dad doesn't count)
( ) crashed into a friend's car
( ) been to Japan
(x) ridden in a taxi
(x) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) stole something from your job
( ) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras in new orleans
( ) been to Europe
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
(x) saw someone die ( my doggg =[ )
(x)had a close friend die
( )was it recently
( ) Been to Africa
( ) Driven over 400 miles in one day
( ) Been to Canada
( ) Been to Mexico
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) Thrown up in a bar
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been snowboarding
( ) Been Skiing
(x) Met someone in person from the internet(like frends of frends)
( ) Been moshing at a rock show
( ) Been to a moto cross show
( ) lost a child
( ) gone to college
( ) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
(x) thought about killing yourself
( ) attempt suicide more than once a month
( ) cut yourself on purpose ( thought about it )
(x) taken painkillers
( ) had someone cheat on you
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) had a crush on someone you shouldn't
( ) fucked up school cause of a problem with weed ?
( ) own a ipod
( ) own a mp3 player
(x) fancy someone on your friend list
( ) have shaved ur head and glued all the hair 2 your ass (yes because that is normal)
( ) had both legs fall asleep at once?
( ) gone on a date with someone and you didnt know
( ) Been to australia..
THAT WAS FUN ;; COMMENT
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[Thursday
February 24th, 2005
12:33pm] |
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( when you;re bored )
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[Tuesday
February 22nd, 2005
11:30am] |
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i been too buzy and too occupied with myspace that i totally forgot about livejournal. so this is what i;ve been up to.
NEWS: zilka can finially drive =)
start of the break : mel's surprise party that me and trina pulled off. went to damons, ate and did the present scene. then zilka and jon drove us to friendlys and met up with justin eric hoff greg and some other losers. went back to steves, over-all good night.
next day : went to the mall with kim and jackie. got some hott stuff lol
whatever day this was: zilka came over trina's and we did nails. "it smells ... like girls ! " then we drove around in the snow, skidded a few times, met up with shai and ben <33333 then slept at mellanies
last night i went to trina's again to hang out with mell and david because everyone was at the downtown, thats about it. gym today and probably hanging out with those losers again.
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[Wednesday
February 9th, 2005
5:38pm] |
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[Saturday
January 8th, 2005
2:58pm] |
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yesterday night i went over
to ren a rooo's house, havent hung out
with her in a while.
yes, we're very mad at zilka now.
we were all suppose to go to madeline's house
around 7:30-8:00, you know how it goes down
but zilka of coarse, didnt call us until 9:30.
mell zilka steph jon sean peterson all went to tri's
bc she was punished .. yeah we brought the party
to her house because we love her =)
we all just chilled out there for a while
went home around 11 - i dont really remember anything
then i went outside called ericc to talk about a few things
and it starts hailing rain, i was around the f-in block
and had to run home =( then bed, phone with rob, and bed
woke up at 2:30 ... now i dont feel good and im SO tired
whats up forr todayy ??????
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[Tuesday
December 28th, 2004
9:48am] |
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havent updated in a while
+ zilkas party thursday night was INSANE =)
+ CIrcle M with the girls then back to zilkas with jon and mazo, yeah ;)
+ me and mell ... hah i love this girl
+ rob forge and me are cool
+ jackie and trina are good too
+ got a new memory card for my camera .. insane pictures now
+christmas was cute at jackies house
+ 711 with richie joey ryan and jackie, nuff said
- i miss mell
- i miss my madre
- i didnt get anything at the mall, NOTHING
+ had an awesome night with ren trina jackie jon and greg
- software for my digital camera is too complicated for me
+ coookie doughhh iceee creammmmm.
+ i made a myspace ( click here
http://profiles.myspace.com/users/13127405 )
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[Sunday
December 19th, 2004
1:31pm] |
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last night i hung out with ren trina zilka hoff seigel eric sarah justin, his girlfriend and some other people. yeah enough said =) =) =)
Can we forget about the things
I said when I was drunk?
I didn't mean to call you that.
I can't remember what was said
or what you threw at me, please tell me
Please tell me why,
my car is in the front yard
and I'm sleeping with my clothes on
I came in through the window last night.
and you're gone ... gone
COMMENT <333
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[Saturday
December 18th, 2004
10:47am] |
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thursday- The O.C. was on, i tried to tape it because chrismakkuh is my favorite =) but my tv messed it up. Thats okay, because i still watched it. Then jackie and zilka called me and i had to summerize the whole eposide. cant wait for next week.
friday- didnt wanna go out. ben had his friend sleep over, so it was so loud in my house. went to bed around 8'oclock and rob woke me up to talk later on that night.
today i changed my belly button ring to a star because i was sick of my other one. have to straighten my hair for winter wind ensamble performance at the mall ... around 2'oclock
i seriously dont know what to do anymore. all my friends are dropping like flies, its so ridiculous. after everything we been through, how can people throw it away? but thats life you know. you learn to live with it, even though it hurts. i really dont know what to believe. when half the school is telling you one thing, and one person is telling you another, its really hard to make a decision =( =(
and it sucks to think about you all the time <|3
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[Thursday
December 16th, 2004
6:25pm] |
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this week is going so incredibly slow
after i read bree's journal i decided to write how i feel.
i changed over the last year also. he changed me. they changed me. and even with all the hardships and fights and hurt and everything that came along with them, i dont regret it. this all has happened for a reason. but i wanted to say sorry to everyone i hurt. i am so scared of going for something new, im so scared of getting attached because i dont want them to get ripped away from me ( just like my friends, my dad, other family memebers, boys .. anything ) highschool taught us all alot. stay true to your real friends, and if something happens with one of them, others shouldnt get involved. highschool also is teaching us that maybe you're friends with someone for a certain reason at a certain time. when that time passes, its okay to let go. letting go can be the hardest thing to do, but we all have to do it. um basically everyone has to stop picking fights with people and stop saying shit, its really immature. people just love to lose all my trust and stab me in the back. some go right up to me and stab in the front, and others find it hilarious to stab me in the heart. so thank you for being there, you know who you are, and im sorry that i changed, and im sorry how i am today. for everyone else, grow up.
" look what you've
done, you've made a
fool of everyone "
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[Monday
December 13th, 2004
9:28pm] |
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this weekend has been boring.
friday- i was sick so i slept and watched movies all day.
saturday- mac's bowling tourney and out with ren for her bday.
sunday- family came over for CHanukah
its a monday, so that basically says it all.
tonight i hung out with zilka eric jackie ren and then kiersten showed up.
zilka your like another big brother ;) AMAZING stories. crazy.
yeah thinking about a lot of stuff now.
about to break down, just wanted to update.
please comment <3
Like violence,
you have me
forever..
.. and after
Like violence,
you kill me.
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[Thursday
December 9th, 2004
3:54pm] |
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havent updated in a while, let me fill you guys in. yesterday i came home and watched spice world on tv. greatest movie i must admit ;) had the whole hanukkah deal and got a bag and candles and went out to eat. after that i went to winter wind ensamble to perform, where i saw pat and bill. we all had a pretty decent time though.
today kinda sucked, kinda been stressed out lately. basically had tests all day. then in art my friend jackie in 11th, gave me a straighter. i am so in love with you now lol ;) ummm science was the best because andrew accardi makes me laugh, non stop. walked home from school and me and jax decided to steal this kid's football. funniest shit ever. now im sitting here, going to the bowling alley soon, gonna go see d'orio and my brother, then out with the family for chhhannnuukahhhh. comment kids.
So, we're talking forever
and you almost feel better but,
betters no excuse for tonight you see,
it's never bad enough
to just leave or give up but,
its never good enough to feel right <|3
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[Thursday
December 9th, 2004
3:54pm] |
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havent updated in a while, let me fill you guys in. yesterday i came home and watched spice world on tv. greatest movie i must admit ;) had the whole hanukkah deal and got a bag and candles and went out to eat. after that i went to winter wind ensamble to perform, where i saw pat and bill. we all had a pretty decent time though.
today kinda sucked, kinda been stressed out lately. basically had tests all day. then in art my friend jackie in 11th, gave me a straighter. i am so in love with you now lol ;) ummm science was the best because andrew accardi makes me laugh, non stop. walked home from school and me and jax decided to steal this kid's football. funniest shit ever. now im sitting here, going to the bowling alley soon, gonna go see d'orio and my brother, then out with the family for chhhannnuukahhhh.
So, we're talking forever
and you almost feel better but,
betters no excuse for tonight you see,
it's never bad enough
to just leave or give up but,
its never good enough to feel right <|3
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[Monday
December 6th, 2004
3:50pm] |
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All the boys voices cracking
oh, the moaning half tones.
Come summertime, we're all the same age here.
All the tension and the terror
thin limbed gorgeous green eyes smiling,
and i'm going straight to hell.
All the possibilities and promises just weighs on me so heavily,
and i try but i'm not convincing.
Your lips, they pout and twist,
and i die trying just to keep myself from kissing you.
You take in everything with a certainty i envy.
It's somehow all i need.
Just keep me guessing please.
Darling, all of these awkward jump start stalling conversations,
mean much more to me than anything.
It comes down to me and you,
and whether we're supposed to or not.
We still will. We're so much better off than them.
All the possibilities and promises just weighs on me so heavily.
A look
A laugh
A smile
A second passes by and i regret it.
Words just aren't right.
Sometimes i just can't explain all the ways you devastate me.
ALWAYS ON MY MIND
-the tension and the terror
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[Friday
December 3rd, 2004
10:30pm] |
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Tonight was kinda GAY .... in a GOOD way ;) me and jackie first walked aimlessly around levittown trying to find backroads to the movies, so i wouldnt get caught by my mom. it would of helped if we knew where we were. We got to the movies and hung out with KEVIN so im deffinitly amped about that. Then I met ashley sarah and emily, very cool. Ummm then i saw kim ilana diana maria and NICK, that was so awesome. I also saw some kids from elementry school, and Cody =) and his friends in Best Buy. Tom finially came out of his movie and dan,jackie,tom,kevin, and me just hung out for a while. It was a really insane night actually. MARIA BOUGHT ME A BALL AT OLD NAVY where i saw aaron working. Kevin stole it from me and was making fun of me because I'm short, but its all good now because tom "drops it like it hawt" and the whole "Im a penguin" deal, makes me laugh. That's all folks, you kinda had to be there to enjoy it. Very happy to see all you kids tonight :)
<3 <3 <3 brittany
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November 17th, 2004
7:01pm] |
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Standing on my doorstep in the rain.
Make up running down your face.
You look so good right now.
It's bittersweet that you run to me.
I need you, I bleed you,
I would give up breathing for you,
if you would take my breath and hold it in.
I need to be inside of you.
Show me where it hurts.
Show me what love's done to you.
Don't try to move,
you'll only make it worse than it is already.
you had to be so strong
and I had to be so useless.
I'm always fucking useless, useless without you.
Tears ran down your face
like rain on the window you were looking out.
What were you looking for?
I won't ask tonight.
I need this, just one kiss, a gentle touch, your sweet caress.
My heart will break my ribs if I hold this in.
I must confess.
I hate myself for needing this.
I love our twisted little mess.
I know it's wrong but it just feels right.
The taste of tears is bittersweet tonight.
Show me where it hurts.
Show me what love's done to you.
Don't try to move,
you'll only make it worse than it is already.
You had to be so strong and I had to be so useless.
I'm always fucking useless, useless without you.
I'm scared as hell.
It's about time that I tell you all the things
that you should know.
All the things I'm too scared to show.
I need you, I bleed you, I would give up breathing for you,
if you would take my breath and hold it in..
Show me where it hurts.
Show me what love's done to you.
Don't try to move,
you'll only make it worse than it is already.
You had to be so strong and I had to be so useless.
I'm always fucking useless, useless without you.
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[Sunday
November 14th, 2004
1:24pm] |
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sorry i haven't updated in a while. a lot of things been happening, but the whole world didn't need to know. a lot of things have changed. some friends been getting more distant, and i been getting closer to new ones and old ones. i've been going out a lot more now even though this town is still dead. there's some things i said that i wish i could take back and some things i wish i had the courage to say. i got no sleep last night, and this morning i cleaned the house. i cried to my mom about some people, and i never do that. i usually keep things bottled up inside before telling her. i'm really quite miserable right now.
" and i, i don't wanna speak these words, cause i, i don't wanna make things any worse. why does tonight have to end? why don't we hit restart and pause at our favorite parts. we'll skip the goodbyes "
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[Saturday
October 16th, 2004
12:44pm] |
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"ha - ha- haha- i love you eddie"
"what;s with today, today?"
"im just walking down the street and i hear someone scream OH MY GOD DID YOU GUYS GET THE BONUS QUESTION?!"
"spicee upp youurr lifee"
last night me mel and ash slept over jackie;s house. we had some really random pictures. ask me for them later =P oh yeah, thumbus we;re mad at you for not calling us back.
we all sang old spice girls records because we;re really corny then walked aimlessly around levittown. came back, ate chinese and watched empire records. greatest movie - i request renting that one. then mell and ash fell asleep and then theres me and jackie crying our eyes out to moulin rouge. "hurt him to save him" we went to sleep around 3 in the morning and had to be at school by 11 for the parade. talked to a lot of people getting out of their PSAT test. rob forge came to just make fun of us all because he didn;t have to march. well guess what juice head, we didnt have to march either!!! hahaha. so happy. yeah division left without us. so we got to go home ;)
<3
bellmore fair tonight possibily
more updates later.
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[Tuesday
October 12th, 2004
3:26pm] |
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weekend sucked. yesterday was great though. i went with ash and jackie to meet up with kev and tom. ( but i cant call him tom, or any other name, but when ash calls him thumbus, she doesnt get in trouble ) lol. so we hung out on the play grounds for a little and met eric and jeremey? yeah. then off to wendys when some assholes whipped me with onions and got ketchup on my sweatshirt and there all just dying laughing. me and jackie tried being like austin powers =) i think that was the high light of my day. couldnt stop laughing.
should i skip the milk part? no. asley took 2 half and halfs and help them to her boobs and said "jackie milk me" so jax turns around and ash squishes it and it goes all over her. and partially on me. so we ran into old navy to go to the bathroom while the boys tried on thongs. we all learned was frundle means - i think ? then we watched them skate and went home. hah
" im a penguin "
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[Saturday
October 9th, 2004
2:29pm] |
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i;m at jackie;s house right now. we just got back from the fesitval at gardners. we stayed for only a little bc it got really boring.
i haven;t updated this in a while because my mom doesn;t like me using this at home so i can only do it when i come here. yeah pretty gay.
so yesterday i was having a bad day on account of a broken heart <|3
so me jackie trina and ashley went to see the forgotten. it was really weird. beyond weird. and we were in the ghettoest threate. i saw katie there too. haha. " ohhh noo what now, he dropped the F bomb" ... dude shes mentally high. when i got home, i watched my brother and like 10 guys play poker. i dont understand how people can play poker for ... 4 hours. wow.
i;ll catch up on this later. i have a craving for orange juice again.
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